what faith!

“Some time later God tested Abraham…Then God said, ‘Take your son, your only son, Isaac, whom you love, and go to the region of Moriah. Sacrifice him there as a burnt offering on one of the mountains I will tell you about.'” Genesis 22:1-2

I’ve read Genesis 3 or 4 times before, but never have I related to this story before the way I do now. What if God said to me or Richard “Take your son, your only son, Randall, whom you love, and go to the region of Moriah. Sacrifice him there as a burnt offering on one of the mountains I will tell you about.” I’d say, “wait…what!?!?” And I would get hysterical and then start bargaining by asking questions. I would question God’s every motive and direction for me. But what does Abraham do? He obeys. One second I’m asking myself, “Abraham, what are you thinking!?!? Didn’t you learn from the first time to not tell kings that your wife is your sister!? You’ve already made that mistake. Shape up or ship out!” But then his faith is tested by God and not only does he obey, but he obeys with honor and respect to God!

Isaac spoke up and said to his father Abraham, “Father?”

“Yes, my son?” Abraham replied.

“The fire and wood are here,” Isaac said, “but where is the lamb for the burnt offering?”

Abraham answered, “God himself will provide the lamb for the burnt offering, my son.” Genesis 22:7-8

Wow. I am speechless. I don’t even know how to work this out in my head. Everyday, since the moment Randall has been born I have had to remind myself that he is not mine. Even though the first words I said to him were “You are mine.” He is not mine. He is God’s gift to me to take care of. He is a part of God’s plan to teach me of His undying love for me. He is God’s way of showing me how God desires relationship with me just like I am going to desire relationship with Randall when he starts making his own friends and life for himself. I am going to want to know what Randall is doing and want to be a part of his journey. He is also a way for me to understand God’s love for His Son that He sacrificed for me…for us. God sacrificed His Son…whom He loved. Abraham did too. Isaac was saved from this once Abraham’s faith proved true. Christ was not.

There might be a time in my life where Randall, or another child God might bless me with, will have to be placed on an altar as a sacrifice for God. He might get sick. He might be called to come home to Jesus before me. He might be called to a life of sacrifice in some way that I can’t even think of right now. But I will have to keep my faith in God. And that is my prayer today, because I do not have faith in myself to be that strong for God’s will.

Abba Father,

Thank you.

Thank you for my son. For my husband. For my life. For rescuing me from myself day in and day out.

I plead with you now that you will give me the faith and strength to endure the trials to come. The sacrifice it will take to be your daughter. Your beloved bride. Your princess.

You love me more than Randall or Richard. More than my mother or anyone else on this earth.

You care for me and set out the best for me.

I plead with you to give me the faith I need to trust you wholeheartedly with my life, my son’s life and Richard’s life too.

I want to love and trust you with all my heart, soul, mind and strength.

Thank you.

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