a glimpse of the Almighty

Lately, I’ve really been experiencing the beautiful tapestry of God’s word in my life. What does that fancy talk mean? Well between Sunday sermons, Monday night Elijah study and BSF’s inductive (to say the least) study of Isaiah, God has been weaving a central theme of His holiness in my life…and what exactly it should mean to me…and how it should affect me.

“How could I be in Your story, the God who was and is and is to come?” -Everything is Different, Shane & Shane

I was in tears the entire sermon on Sunday and it was such a precious morning of tears for me. I had just been reading in Isaiah 6 with BSF and Isaiah describes the vision of the Lord Almighty on His throne…but I’ll come back to that. That following Sunday, Tom preached about Revelations 4 which is very similar when describing God on His throne. He explained how in times of trouble, when life if rough, when it’s the worst it has ever been…we still must praise God. And the only way we can do that is by seeing who He truly is…Holy. As he preached through the scripture, tears rolled down my face as I envisioned my King…my Father. He is my Daddy. The only one I’ve ever been able to call that. What a perfect Father. My Abba. He is so worthy of my affection. He is a King! Look how He is described:

I saw the Lord seated on a throne, high and exalted, and the train of his robe filled the temple.  Above him were seraphs, each with six wings: With two wings they covered their faces, with two they covered their feet, and with two they were flying. And they were calling to one another:

Holy, holy, holy is the LORD Almighty;
the whole earth is full of his glory.”

At the sound of their voices the doorposts and thresholds shook and the temple was filled with smoke. Isaiah 6:1-4

I can sit here all day and talk about how awesome He is. I could go on and on about how real He is. He is the lover of my soul and He has won my heart. I’m so thankful to have this glimpse of my Maker. Only by seeing His greatness and relying on Him am I able to make it through this crazy world. This world full of sin, death and hatred.

Just as I begin to believe that all is lost and this world will never be able to endure I am reminded numerous times that God is sovereign. When God turns away from His people that have chosen to turn away from Him, it isn’t devastation…it’s about redemption. Throughout the Old Testament His chosen people consistently turn away from Him and He continually redeems them. There is wrath and suffering but not because God is vengeful but because “His wrath and judgment reflect the response of His holy character against sin in all of its forms and impurities. It is the whole being of God opposing all that is evil, unjust, unfair, and unrighteous.”-BSF study. How else could we call Him Holy?

Holy- that which is separated, set apart, treated with special care, withheld from ordinary use, belonging uniquely to the Lord. The opposite of common or ordinary.  (BSF study)

Anyways…so what’s my response to this? Well naturally I begin to feel unworthy. Compared to Him. God doesn’t desire for me to beat myself up about this though. But I still do. The way Isaiah reacts to seeing his King is exactly how I think I would.

“Woe to me!” I cried. “I am ruined! For I am a man of unclean lips,and my eyes have seen the King, the LORD Almighty.” Isaiah 6:5

I would immediately recognize my faults. I have to consciously work to not stay in this place. Every. Day. I battle doubt, negative thinking & believing I don’t deserve grace because I am attacked daily with lies from this world that I’m living in. It completely reminds me of one of my all time favorite songs written by Shane & Shane “Embracing Accusation“. It’s easy to get caught in what I do wrong. But bottom line….Jesus Saves.

And that’s what the next verses show.

With it he touched my mouth and said, “See, this has touched your lips; your guilt is taken away and your sin atoned for.” Isaiah 6:7

God provides an atonement for us. Jesus.

This glimpse of the Almighty has given me confidence. I feel better about my desire to do women’s ministry one day. I constantly worry if I’m doing what I want instead of what God wants. This worry comes from my experience of trying to do what I think is the best choice instead of consulting God on what He thinks and where He would have me go with my life.

Anyways, when you get a clear glimpse of who you trust with your life you begin to grow. I feel confirmed that God has me here in Fort Lauderdale with all the time and opportunity to get immersed in His word and learn from many wise women around me at Rio Vista. I am learning so much…but more importantly I’m falling more and more in love with God. He is so perfect. I can’t explain it. But His word is truly affecting every part of my life. Who He is makes me feel alive.

So as Isaiah receives this glimpse, this atonement…he is now made clean and ready for “duty”. You get a glimpse and you realize your need for God and you surrender your life. Then God calls you to something amazing. Amazing is defined differently for everyone. And yes…my little life here in South Florida IS amazing. My “little” calling is huge. I feel like I’m being equipped for greatness. Not my own greatness. But to glorify God in the way He has planned. He is readying me for something. Maybe it’s not women’s ministry, but this time in my life is precious to me. It’s preparation for something.

So I decided I can apply this scripture in my life to confirm that I am taking the right steps to following God’s will for my life. There is no magical equation by ANY means. But this is just how God is meeting me where I’m at. I needed to be affirmed that I’m where He wants me…not where I think I should be.

Anyways, here is how I broke down the application: (Maybe you will find it helpful in your life too??)

Again this isn’t the only way to discern God’s will. Nor am I an expert. Maybe this is the wrong way to apply this scripture so literally in your opinion. But this is just where God has me. Sorry to reiterate that again but I want to ensure you know my heart on this matter.

Praying & Observing to confirm God’s will & calling

  • He will give me a high view of Himself

-Do I see Him exalted in my life?

-Am I recognizing myself as His servant?

  • He will give me a sense of need

-Do I recognize that I need Him?

-Do I see the need of the people?

*Humility: Do I know and recognize that I have the same need and that I

am no better than they are.

  • He will cleanse me before He calls me

-Have I repented of all my sin?

-Pray that God has revealed unknown sin to me

  • He calls those that are humble and willing

-Am I being prideful? Do I think I’m better than the people God has called me

to minister to?

-Pray that God confirms humility in me

-Pray that when I’m called that I recognize the invitation & I am willing & not

afraid.

-Pray that I am watchful to His “rhetorical questions”(Isaiah 6:8) that He

knows the answers to. His way of stirring my heart to action.

  • RESPOND “Here I am. Send me!” (Isaiah 6:8)
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